He is powerful: bending her will to his, bending her body to his, shaping her pleasure, her position, her submission with his hands. Tonight, she has a request. “Give me power.”
“Tell me how,” he says, amused.
“Hold my hands,” she whispers, smirking. “Don’t let go. Direct me with your mouth; direct me with your body. But don’t let go of my hands; you can’t direct me with your hands.” She smiles at him, expecting protest. His eyelids lower, but he smiles and agrees.
She holds her hands up; he links his fingers with hers. He moves closer, kissing her gently, kneading her fingers slightly between his. He backs her up against the wall; she can feel the faux chair rail pressing against her rear. He kisses her more insistently now, pressing his hips into her. It is just like she imagines: his warm kisses, becoming more fierce, his tongue seeking hers, his body pressing against hers.
He stretches her arms over her head, never letting go of her fingers. Now he is sucking her lips hard, nearly drawing blood. He sucks her tongue into his mouth; it feels like he might rip it from her mouth. His hips buck against her; the chair rail pushes back. He pushes one leg between her legs, grinding his thigh into her crotch.
He pulls her hands down to shoulder height, and tears his mouth away from hers. He begins kissing her neck, gently biting at the skin, nipping her ear lobes. She is frantic, her head turning from side to side. Each time she exposes the skin on her neck, he attacks, raking his teeth against the fragile skin. He slides down, puts his mouth directly over her breast, through the thin fabric of her shirt. He breathes against the fabric; the heat reaches her skin just as he bites down, pinching her nipple slightly and making her cry out. He covers her mouth with his, kissing her hard and deep. He pauses, leaving her breathless, but only long enough to relax before he bites down on the other breast.
Now he kneels, pulling her hands down with him, at her side. He uses his teeth to move her sweater, biting her exposed stomach. He moves his mouth farther down, breathing into her mound through the thin fabric of her skirt. Her hips move to meet him. He uses his teeth to scrape against her through the skirt, and she grinds her hips into his mouth. She is panting now, and he uses his teeth and their linked hands to pull the elastic waistband over her hips, leaving her standing in the small lacy panties with her skirt around her ankles. He uses his mouth to push aside the fabric of her panties, sucking her wet pussy into his mouth forcefully, making her cry out again.
His fingers are kneading, squeezing, cutting off the circulation to her hands. “Touch me,” she manages to whisper. He pulls back, looking up at her slyly. “I can’t,” he says, shrugging, holding up their linked hands. “Your rules.” She can barely breathe, barely think.
Her desperation makes her give in, and she releases his hands. There is a moment of silent tension, expectant. He rises, takes both hands and lays them on either side of her face, kissing her gently. She’s trembling from the effort of standing still. She kisses him back, waiting.
Then he grabs the rest of her clothes, fluidly stripping her. She hears a seam give; she doesn’t care. She’s naked before him and he tears his own clothes off, standing before her, hard, his eyes dark. He spins her around, and pushes her down on the bed. She falls, and he’s straddling her before she can do anything. He puts a knee between her legs, forcing them open, falling heavy on top of her. Penetrating her, but not before he grabs her hands, holding them high above her head, pinned to the bed. She’s wide-eyed, expecting the hurt. But she’s wet, and he slips in easily. She feels only a dull ache with each thrust, though it’s starting to build to that edge. She struggles to pull her hands free, to hold him, to bring him closer. But he keeps her hands pinned, kissing her hard, so she can hardly breathe. He’s thrusting harder and faster; she writhes beneath him, trapped, her hands useless. She feels the wave coming; she wants to say something. But his mouth covers hers, absorbing her cries and her frantic attempts at speech. He moves faster and harder, and then she’s lost, the blood pounding in her ears as the pent up tension releases. She feels him tense, feels his hands holding hers tightly. He pulls his mouth away to look down on her as his own orgasm rocks his body, making him groan.
He collapses on her, exhausted. She waits for her heart to slow. As she attempts to pull her hands from his, hoping to wrap her arms around him, he tightens his grip on her hands, stretching her arms farther above her head, trapping her. He kisses her gently on the neck as he sprawls across her, in complete control.
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Monday, February 8, 2010
A Touch of Possession
His hand rested on her shoulder and she felt his fingers slip through the fringes of her hair where it touched her collar. In the dim lights of the patio, he stood behind her, talking to one of his counterparts about the afternoon seminar, while she watched the guitarist on stage. His fingers slid up her neck, and into her hairline, and though the night air was still warm, she felt the goosebumps rise on her skin. He paused, leaning down to ask if she needed her drink refilled; his hand instinctively tightened around her neck as his words stirred the hair against her cheek. She held her breath until he left, closing her eyes and swallowing hard when she felt the shift in the air as he walked away.
She stood, stretching, and twisted her neck from side to side, concentrating on making her heart slow in time to the music. The others stood, kissed her casually on the cheek one by one, and walked away with a wave. She turned back toward the stage, watching, but not really hearing the music. The soft click of his shoes on the wood deck signaled his approach moments before his left hand rested low on her back and his right hand reached around her body, placing a drink in her hand. His fingers trailed against hers as she took the drink, and she took a deep breath. “The others just left,” she said, not really knowing what she expected his response to be.
“If you like the music, we can stay,” he said, his voice measured and low. “Or bring your drink. We can hear the music from the balcony.” She knew he meant his balcony, even though he’d never actually asked the question. The executives had the suites with the balconies; she just had one of the inside resort suites with no particular view.
“Let’s hear this one song,” she responded, sinking back down into the seat. He remained standing, behind her, and his hand came up to rest on her shoulder, almost possessively. He squeezed her shoulder, then she felt his fingers at the edge of her neckline, slipping inside the fabric, grasping her collarbone then tracing it up to her neck. He had to be able to feel her chest rise and fall rapidly with her breathing, she thought, and she took a big gulp of her drink, hoping it would take away the edge. By the time the musician on stage finished his piece, there was nothing but the remnants of her ice cubes floating in the glass. She pondering listening to another song, but the musician rose, taking a break, and she knew she couldn’t just sit here. Or even wanted to.
“Did you want to stay for the last set?” he asked, and she looked up at him. His blue eyes were dark, and his face was calm, waiting for her answer. She shook her head; he blinked his eyes slowly, turning his eyes away from her momentarily, and his mouth curled in that smirk she was so used to seeing across a board room table. Though this time it made her stomach flip, just a bit. He held his hand out to her for assistance; she held it carefully as she stood and stepped around the potted plants by the low seats until she was standing next to him. Still smiling confidently, he held his right hand in the direction of the exit, and she stepped slightly in front of him, feeling his left hand come up to rest on her lower back as they threaded their way through the last of the evening crowd.
It was a short walk to the guest suites and when they got to the point where she should have turned to go to her own room, she paused, turning to him. Without missing a beat, he pointed straight ahead to the view suites, and when they reached the base of the stairs at the entryway, he turned in front of her, shepherding her up the steps, slight pressure still at the back of her waist. His keycard was out and in the room door, without giving her any time to think.
The door swung open quietly, and she could smell orange and sandalwood, and some type of exotic flower. The lights were low, and housekeeping had turned down the bed and turned on the music. He stepped in behind her, closing the door, and removing his sport jacket, hanging it in the closet inside the room. She stood in the middle of the room, thinking the king-sized bed looked enormous, then looked away quickly, walking to the balcony doors which were open. She heard him open the minibar, and heard the clink of a bottle top and the “pop” of a release. He was beside her momentarily, holding two glasses of sparkling water, and he motioned for her to step outside. She stepped onto the balcony, careful that her heels didn’t catch in the wooden slats, and rested her glass on the thick wooden railing. The view was secluded, with trees and plants shading the immediate neighbors, but not impeding the view of the lake and the shoreline. The music inside was piped into small, hidden speakers on the balcony, and she felt him step up behind her, his hand around her waist, fingers on the waistband of her skirt, swaying just a bit in time to the music.
She turned to look at him, his skin flushed against the stark white collared shirt, moonlight reflecting in his eyes, and his eyes crinkled in a smile. “Is this ok?” he asked, and she wasn’t sure if he meant that she was here, that his arm was around her, or something more. She nodded, not quite able to form the right words, and he set his glass down next to hers. He brought his right hand up, letting it slip inside the collar of her shirt, skim over her shoulders and neck, coming up to rest on her cheek, his fingertips behind her ear. She felt her heart racing, wondering if he could feel the pulse under his fingers. “Is this ok?” he asked, letting his thumb trace her bottom lip, and she finally found the breath to say “Yes,” just the instant before his lips replaced his thumb and he fitted his mouth against hers, his hand still on her neck.
Her mouth opened instinctively, and his did too, and there was a pause before she felt his tongue brush against hers. She heard herself gasp into his mouth; his response was a low moan that sounded almost like he was purring, and she could feel the vibrations against her mouth as they kissed. Her body leaned in toward his, and his arm flexed around her, keeping her close. She paused to catch her breath, and a slow smile spread across his face. He stepped backwards, letting his hand trail down her arm, catching her fingers, pulling her with him. She stepped back inside, and as she did, stepped out of her heels, leaving them inside the balcony door. Now, she had to look up at him, and he stepped back again, until she could see the white linens of the bed behind him, and he reached out a hand for her, pulling her to him again. “Is this ok?” he asked, his voice huskier, and this time, she felt an involuntarily spasm in her groin. He leaned in, waiting for her answer, staring at her intently.
Her heart hammered her chest and she felt his hand playing at her waist band, tugging at the ends of her blouse, pulling it out of her skirt. When she felt it finally give, and the fingers of his one hand touch the bare skin on her waist, she caught her breath again. And then she heard her own voice, like it didn’t belong to her body anymore. Strong and confident, she answered him out loud in the room – “Yes” – and leaned in to meet his mouth. “Yes.”
She stood, stretching, and twisted her neck from side to side, concentrating on making her heart slow in time to the music. The others stood, kissed her casually on the cheek one by one, and walked away with a wave. She turned back toward the stage, watching, but not really hearing the music. The soft click of his shoes on the wood deck signaled his approach moments before his left hand rested low on her back and his right hand reached around her body, placing a drink in her hand. His fingers trailed against hers as she took the drink, and she took a deep breath. “The others just left,” she said, not really knowing what she expected his response to be.
“If you like the music, we can stay,” he said, his voice measured and low. “Or bring your drink. We can hear the music from the balcony.” She knew he meant his balcony, even though he’d never actually asked the question. The executives had the suites with the balconies; she just had one of the inside resort suites with no particular view.
“Let’s hear this one song,” she responded, sinking back down into the seat. He remained standing, behind her, and his hand came up to rest on her shoulder, almost possessively. He squeezed her shoulder, then she felt his fingers at the edge of her neckline, slipping inside the fabric, grasping her collarbone then tracing it up to her neck. He had to be able to feel her chest rise and fall rapidly with her breathing, she thought, and she took a big gulp of her drink, hoping it would take away the edge. By the time the musician on stage finished his piece, there was nothing but the remnants of her ice cubes floating in the glass. She pondering listening to another song, but the musician rose, taking a break, and she knew she couldn’t just sit here. Or even wanted to.
“Did you want to stay for the last set?” he asked, and she looked up at him. His blue eyes were dark, and his face was calm, waiting for her answer. She shook her head; he blinked his eyes slowly, turning his eyes away from her momentarily, and his mouth curled in that smirk she was so used to seeing across a board room table. Though this time it made her stomach flip, just a bit. He held his hand out to her for assistance; she held it carefully as she stood and stepped around the potted plants by the low seats until she was standing next to him. Still smiling confidently, he held his right hand in the direction of the exit, and she stepped slightly in front of him, feeling his left hand come up to rest on her lower back as they threaded their way through the last of the evening crowd.
It was a short walk to the guest suites and when they got to the point where she should have turned to go to her own room, she paused, turning to him. Without missing a beat, he pointed straight ahead to the view suites, and when they reached the base of the stairs at the entryway, he turned in front of her, shepherding her up the steps, slight pressure still at the back of her waist. His keycard was out and in the room door, without giving her any time to think.
The door swung open quietly, and she could smell orange and sandalwood, and some type of exotic flower. The lights were low, and housekeeping had turned down the bed and turned on the music. He stepped in behind her, closing the door, and removing his sport jacket, hanging it in the closet inside the room. She stood in the middle of the room, thinking the king-sized bed looked enormous, then looked away quickly, walking to the balcony doors which were open. She heard him open the minibar, and heard the clink of a bottle top and the “pop” of a release. He was beside her momentarily, holding two glasses of sparkling water, and he motioned for her to step outside. She stepped onto the balcony, careful that her heels didn’t catch in the wooden slats, and rested her glass on the thick wooden railing. The view was secluded, with trees and plants shading the immediate neighbors, but not impeding the view of the lake and the shoreline. The music inside was piped into small, hidden speakers on the balcony, and she felt him step up behind her, his hand around her waist, fingers on the waistband of her skirt, swaying just a bit in time to the music.
She turned to look at him, his skin flushed against the stark white collared shirt, moonlight reflecting in his eyes, and his eyes crinkled in a smile. “Is this ok?” he asked, and she wasn’t sure if he meant that she was here, that his arm was around her, or something more. She nodded, not quite able to form the right words, and he set his glass down next to hers. He brought his right hand up, letting it slip inside the collar of her shirt, skim over her shoulders and neck, coming up to rest on her cheek, his fingertips behind her ear. She felt her heart racing, wondering if he could feel the pulse under his fingers. “Is this ok?” he asked, letting his thumb trace her bottom lip, and she finally found the breath to say “Yes,” just the instant before his lips replaced his thumb and he fitted his mouth against hers, his hand still on her neck.
Her mouth opened instinctively, and his did too, and there was a pause before she felt his tongue brush against hers. She heard herself gasp into his mouth; his response was a low moan that sounded almost like he was purring, and she could feel the vibrations against her mouth as they kissed. Her body leaned in toward his, and his arm flexed around her, keeping her close. She paused to catch her breath, and a slow smile spread across his face. He stepped backwards, letting his hand trail down her arm, catching her fingers, pulling her with him. She stepped back inside, and as she did, stepped out of her heels, leaving them inside the balcony door. Now, she had to look up at him, and he stepped back again, until she could see the white linens of the bed behind him, and he reached out a hand for her, pulling her to him again. “Is this ok?” he asked, his voice huskier, and this time, she felt an involuntarily spasm in her groin. He leaned in, waiting for her answer, staring at her intently.
Her heart hammered her chest and she felt his hand playing at her waist band, tugging at the ends of her blouse, pulling it out of her skirt. When she felt it finally give, and the fingers of his one hand touch the bare skin on her waist, she caught her breath again. And then she heard her own voice, like it didn’t belong to her body anymore. Strong and confident, she answered him out loud in the room – “Yes” – and leaned in to meet his mouth. “Yes.”
Monday, February 1, 2010
Secret Valentine
No cards, no flowers,
No candlelight, no note;
No diamonds, no candies,
No words that you wrote.
I can’t hold your hand,
We won’t share a kiss;
You’ll dine with another,
What more will I miss?
Your voice in my ear
Might be silent tonight;
Not your scent, nor touch,
No arm around me tight.
So what do I have then,
That I can call mine?
If someone else calls you
Valentine?
Burned in my memory,
I have a glance,
Words, a touch,
An unexpected chance.
A long ago kiss,
A fire in your eyes,
Moments of passion,
Excited butterflies.
A walk on a beach,
Dinners together,
Echoes of ecstasy,
A whispered “forever”.
Visual images,
Undressing piece by piece,
Skin against skin,
The aching release.
Connected by heartstrings,
Separated by miles,
Strong words and emotions,
Some tears, but more smiles.
Memories of moments,
I never expected to find,
Some captured on film,
More filmed in my mind.
You gave me your heart,
In exchange, you got mine.
Love, Always, Forever.
My secret Valentine.
No candlelight, no note;
No diamonds, no candies,
No words that you wrote.
I can’t hold your hand,
We won’t share a kiss;
You’ll dine with another,
What more will I miss?
Your voice in my ear
Might be silent tonight;
Not your scent, nor touch,
No arm around me tight.
So what do I have then,
That I can call mine?
If someone else calls you
Valentine?
Burned in my memory,
I have a glance,
Words, a touch,
An unexpected chance.
A long ago kiss,
A fire in your eyes,
Moments of passion,
Excited butterflies.
A walk on a beach,
Dinners together,
Echoes of ecstasy,
A whispered “forever”.
Visual images,
Undressing piece by piece,
Skin against skin,
The aching release.
Connected by heartstrings,
Separated by miles,
Strong words and emotions,
Some tears, but more smiles.
Memories of moments,
I never expected to find,
Some captured on film,
More filmed in my mind.
You gave me your heart,
In exchange, you got mine.
Love, Always, Forever.
My secret Valentine.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
In the Dark
It hit me in the dark, in that funny space between consciousness and the blissful nothingness before the dreams start; that place where you try to silence the cacophony in your head, your eyes flickering under closed lids as the images flash by. Just as the voices started to become muffled, and the pictures darkened and stopped flickering, the image was there, as vivid as the moment it happened: his voice, quiet, with a smile behind it; his eyes dark with desire but still crinkled at the corners; his body lean and tense, poised over me.
With that small fissure opened, related images tumbled around, fighting for my attention, their clarity and intensity sucking the air out of my lungs and causing an involuntary rush in my groin. I could remember the small details of each incremental moment of satisfaction we’d had; I could also remember the mounting frustration that each brought, knowing that the next step could be so much better, if we’d just take it.
And then the image was back; him, poised over me, my heart still hammering in my chest from the last hit, the memory of his mouth against my flesh and his tongue flickering over concentrated nerve endings. I wanted more; he moved between my legs, leaning over me. His one hand came under my hip, tilting me closer to him, and I could feel him hard against my wetness, heat radiating from him. His face was close enough to see his lashes and the smile lines near his mouth; I could smell the faint traces of his soap. I wrapped one leg up over his hips; he was lean and his skin smooth, the curve of his lower back irresistible.
“I hope you’re not claustrophobic,” he murmured, almost rhetorically, as he wrapped his other arm over my head, not giving me a choice to protest, as if he knew I wouldn’t. He shifted his hips, and in one swift movement, buried himself inside of me completely, the base of his shaft thick. All the desperation and frustration of the previous day faded; there was a moment of instant satisfaction in feeling this full. The day before I’d found myself wanting to be inside of his skin, unable to get enough; now he was inside of me, literally, and I realized I’d underestimated how good this could feel.
I wrapped my legs tighter, running my hand across his smooth, warm skin curving perfectly over his ass, letting his hardness penetrate as deep as it could while my hand urged him on, the rush not far away. He hit a rhythm, keeping me tight against his body, and I shifted my hips, trying to take as much of him as I could, feeling the pressure mounting. And then it hit me in huge, perfect waves that made me twist and arch and cry out, the blood rushing in my head and muffling all the sounds in the room, except my own laugh: a deep, comfortable, satisfied laugh that I could feel in my stomach, which burst out without plan or forethought as the waves subsided. It was perfectly unexpected, much like the whole experience.
And now, here in the dark, without him covering me and filling me, I shut out the other images and sounds, letting this one brief moment replay over and over on the screen in my head, my fingers a poor substitute, but a substitute nonetheless. And after the ensuing wave hit then receded, sleep crept in, pushing the images back into the dark recesses where they would nestle comfortably until I wanted them again. The smile, however, I couldn’t hold back, even in the dark by myself.
With that small fissure opened, related images tumbled around, fighting for my attention, their clarity and intensity sucking the air out of my lungs and causing an involuntary rush in my groin. I could remember the small details of each incremental moment of satisfaction we’d had; I could also remember the mounting frustration that each brought, knowing that the next step could be so much better, if we’d just take it.
And then the image was back; him, poised over me, my heart still hammering in my chest from the last hit, the memory of his mouth against my flesh and his tongue flickering over concentrated nerve endings. I wanted more; he moved between my legs, leaning over me. His one hand came under my hip, tilting me closer to him, and I could feel him hard against my wetness, heat radiating from him. His face was close enough to see his lashes and the smile lines near his mouth; I could smell the faint traces of his soap. I wrapped one leg up over his hips; he was lean and his skin smooth, the curve of his lower back irresistible.
“I hope you’re not claustrophobic,” he murmured, almost rhetorically, as he wrapped his other arm over my head, not giving me a choice to protest, as if he knew I wouldn’t. He shifted his hips, and in one swift movement, buried himself inside of me completely, the base of his shaft thick. All the desperation and frustration of the previous day faded; there was a moment of instant satisfaction in feeling this full. The day before I’d found myself wanting to be inside of his skin, unable to get enough; now he was inside of me, literally, and I realized I’d underestimated how good this could feel.
I wrapped my legs tighter, running my hand across his smooth, warm skin curving perfectly over his ass, letting his hardness penetrate as deep as it could while my hand urged him on, the rush not far away. He hit a rhythm, keeping me tight against his body, and I shifted my hips, trying to take as much of him as I could, feeling the pressure mounting. And then it hit me in huge, perfect waves that made me twist and arch and cry out, the blood rushing in my head and muffling all the sounds in the room, except my own laugh: a deep, comfortable, satisfied laugh that I could feel in my stomach, which burst out without plan or forethought as the waves subsided. It was perfectly unexpected, much like the whole experience.
And now, here in the dark, without him covering me and filling me, I shut out the other images and sounds, letting this one brief moment replay over and over on the screen in my head, my fingers a poor substitute, but a substitute nonetheless. And after the ensuing wave hit then receded, sleep crept in, pushing the images back into the dark recesses where they would nestle comfortably until I wanted them again. The smile, however, I couldn’t hold back, even in the dark by myself.
Saturday, January 16, 2010
Measured
She is casual, her pace measured, anticipating, but not frantic. He, on the other hand, is impatient, and she feels his hand slip around her waist as she unclasps the watch and sets it on the dresser. She turns to him slowly and smiles. "I wore the high ones," she says, lifting a foot and showing him her heels. "So I'd be taller."
He makes time for a slight smile, before he bends and kisses her, fiercely. He moans into her mouth, his breathing fast and shallow, small whimpers in the back of his throat as his lips press into hers hard and his tongue battles hers. He is passionate, and she responds automatically, ignoring his stubble scratching her skin. His hands roam, pressing her flesh, and his mouth consumes hers, teeth scraping against the flesh now and then. She can tell he battles for control, and she considers giving in, knowing he's waited for this for too long.
But she needs the control, knowing that soon, her body will be his and she will bend and flex to his every want. Knowing she'll let him hold her hands taut and pull her body against his and immobilize her while he ravages her with his mouth and his hands and his erection, already straining the confines of his slacks. She can taste the faint traces of blood from the inside of her lips already as he sucks on her bottom lip, drawing his teeth across the tender skin.
She brings her hands up to his cheeks and holds his face, which makes him pause, waiting for her next move. She takes the opportunity to pull back slightly from his mouth, breaking the connection, letting the cool air from the room swirl between their moist lips. She lets her lips brush against his ever so lightly, and she feels his mouth part; she pulls back, teasing his lips with the tip of her tongue. She feels his reach out tentatively, brushing against hers, and she pulls back again, still holding his cheeks in her hands. His breath is still shallow and fast, and she can feel it tickling against her face. She leans in again, this time fitting her mouth gently against his, and he lets her control the pace, mimicking her movements. She dances around the edges of a kiss, letting the heat and the air and an occasional flick of the tongue create the sensations. Each time she gets closer, he moans into her mouth, and she pulls back, making him wait. He learns quickly, waiting for her to set the movement, responding in kind, but she can feel him quiver, waiting.
Only when his control is evident, when it matches her pace and her movements, does she give him more. She opens her mouth, sealing it against his, feeling the moist inside of his lip against hers. She sweeps her tongue against his and over his teeth, and he responds tentatively, not wanting her to pull away. She does it again, this time, slipping her fingers up the back of his neck, through his short hair. She gently sucks his bottom lip into hers, and he returns the favor. As he does, she threads her fingers through the longer hair on top and pulls his mouth to hers, crushing his lips against his teeth.
His moan is gutteral, and his hand slides down her back to cup her ass, pulling her up and towards him. She grinds her hips into his, opening her mouth completely to him, and his tongue forces its way into her mouth, possessing her, sucking the air from her lungs. Now she moans, and he acts quickly, unhooking her skirt and pushing it down, not even giving her a chance to step out of her shoes. He pulls her sweater up over her body and backwards over her head, trapping her arms behind her, not bothering to pull it all the way off. With her arms behind her and her shoulders back, her breasts jut forward, the bra barely containing them. He leans down to kiss the tops, his fingers tugging at the strap and she whispers "Yes . . . "
He pauses, his mouth hovering abover her flesh, feeling the heat radiate against his lips. She arches a little more, thrusting her breast forward, anticipating his mouth. Now, his pace is casual, measured, and not frantic, his lips barely brushing her skin while his fingers contemplate exposing her nipple to the cool air in the room, to his tongue. She closes her eyes, her breathing shallow and quick; she waits for his next move.
He makes time for a slight smile, before he bends and kisses her, fiercely. He moans into her mouth, his breathing fast and shallow, small whimpers in the back of his throat as his lips press into hers hard and his tongue battles hers. He is passionate, and she responds automatically, ignoring his stubble scratching her skin. His hands roam, pressing her flesh, and his mouth consumes hers, teeth scraping against the flesh now and then. She can tell he battles for control, and she considers giving in, knowing he's waited for this for too long.
But she needs the control, knowing that soon, her body will be his and she will bend and flex to his every want. Knowing she'll let him hold her hands taut and pull her body against his and immobilize her while he ravages her with his mouth and his hands and his erection, already straining the confines of his slacks. She can taste the faint traces of blood from the inside of her lips already as he sucks on her bottom lip, drawing his teeth across the tender skin.
She brings her hands up to his cheeks and holds his face, which makes him pause, waiting for her next move. She takes the opportunity to pull back slightly from his mouth, breaking the connection, letting the cool air from the room swirl between their moist lips. She lets her lips brush against his ever so lightly, and she feels his mouth part; she pulls back, teasing his lips with the tip of her tongue. She feels his reach out tentatively, brushing against hers, and she pulls back again, still holding his cheeks in her hands. His breath is still shallow and fast, and she can feel it tickling against her face. She leans in again, this time fitting her mouth gently against his, and he lets her control the pace, mimicking her movements. She dances around the edges of a kiss, letting the heat and the air and an occasional flick of the tongue create the sensations. Each time she gets closer, he moans into her mouth, and she pulls back, making him wait. He learns quickly, waiting for her to set the movement, responding in kind, but she can feel him quiver, waiting.
Only when his control is evident, when it matches her pace and her movements, does she give him more. She opens her mouth, sealing it against his, feeling the moist inside of his lip against hers. She sweeps her tongue against his and over his teeth, and he responds tentatively, not wanting her to pull away. She does it again, this time, slipping her fingers up the back of his neck, through his short hair. She gently sucks his bottom lip into hers, and he returns the favor. As he does, she threads her fingers through the longer hair on top and pulls his mouth to hers, crushing his lips against his teeth.
His moan is gutteral, and his hand slides down her back to cup her ass, pulling her up and towards him. She grinds her hips into his, opening her mouth completely to him, and his tongue forces its way into her mouth, possessing her, sucking the air from her lungs. Now she moans, and he acts quickly, unhooking her skirt and pushing it down, not even giving her a chance to step out of her shoes. He pulls her sweater up over her body and backwards over her head, trapping her arms behind her, not bothering to pull it all the way off. With her arms behind her and her shoulders back, her breasts jut forward, the bra barely containing them. He leans down to kiss the tops, his fingers tugging at the strap and she whispers "Yes . . . "
He pauses, his mouth hovering abover her flesh, feeling the heat radiate against his lips. She arches a little more, thrusting her breast forward, anticipating his mouth. Now, his pace is casual, measured, and not frantic, his lips barely brushing her skin while his fingers contemplate exposing her nipple to the cool air in the room, to his tongue. She closes her eyes, her breathing shallow and quick; she waits for his next move.
Monday, January 11, 2010
Fissure
She wants it to be more, but they’d just be revisiting places they’ve already determined they can’t go. She turns off her heart for this time, because she has to; tomorrow it will break. Tonight, she just needs to take from him, before he’s not there for her to take anymore.
He approaches her from behind, kissing her on the neck, wrapping his arm around her waist. She can feel he’s hard already. Not like she’s surprised; she’s already wet, and has been since dinner, staring across the table at him. Even in the silence, when they were afraid to say what tomorrow would bring - or wouldn’t bring, as was the case. It doesn’t matter; her body betrays her.
She stays like this for a moment, afraid to see his face. She lets his hands wander up under her sweater, inside of her bra, then down under the waistband of her jeans and inside her panties. She memorizes him pressed up against her, his breath, warm on her neck.
He spins her around; his eyes are nearly black, in the dim light. He lifts her sweater in one quick motion. He unbuttons her jeans and slips them over her legs, leaving her in just her bra and panties. He moves his hand over her, like her body is a Braille text he’s reading, memorizing. She feels the lump start in her throat; she pushes it down, turns her emotions on low.
She moves to unbuckle his belt and lets her hands trail across his erection as she slides the jeans down. She pulls his shirt over his head with business-like efficiency, then steps close to him, her body matched to his. He kisses her hard on the mouth, and she responds instantly - no soft exploration, no gentle kisses. It’s teeth pressing into flesh, tongues battling, no room for air. They fall on the bed and his body covers hers. His hips are pressed into her hard, his mouth nearly suffocating her, taking her breath. She can taste blood on her lip, but it only makes her kiss him back, harder. Tomorrow it will heal.
He tears at his briefs, then rips her panties from her, the lace seam giving way. He doesn’t have the patience for the hooks on her bra; he pushes it down, exposing her breast. His mouth clamps down on a nipple, then the whole breast; he’s sucking it into his mouth, almost painfully, leaving red marks on the creamy skin. He comes back up to cover her mouth with his, as he pushes her legs apart.
He buries himself inside of her, but not gradually - in one forceful thrust. She’s wet, but the force still takes her by surprise, and she cries out under his mouth. He forces himself into her again, frenzied, and she still cries out. He pulls back from her mouth, shifts his body and pushes her legs up toward her body, kneeling between her; he pounds her body, watching her face. He lets go of her legs, and she braces her feet against his shoulders. He puts one hand under her hips, touches her face with the other. She bites the palm of his hand as he slides it across her mouth. He makes a move like he’s going to slap her, but stops centimeters from her skin, caressing her cheek. She can feel the tears well in her eyes, knowing he can see them too. She closes her eyes and leans against his hand. He slides it down her neck, pressing into her flesh, and rests his hand on her breast, kneading it, squeezing it, watching the tremors in the other one as he pounds her body repeatedly.
He stops, saying nothing, but she reads his look, and knows the unspoken command. She brings one foot down from his shoulder, crossing it over her own body, turning. He shifts with her, unwilling to lose contact, as she twists her body beneath him, until she is kneeling, with him still inside of her. She lays her chest on the bed, arching her hips to meet him. He pushes himself deep inside of her, pulling her hips back to meet him. She pauses in this familiar position, then raises herself up on all fours. He holds her hips, caressing her ass, waiting. Then he thrusts, shaking her body. He thrusts again, as hard as he can, and she cries out, trying to pull away. He holds her hips and thrusts into her, over and over.
He’s hard and big, and each thrust jars her, making her ache. But the dull pain is being masked by the building rush and she can feel herself getting wetter. She moans and cries out, but they speak no words. He leans down, reaching for her face, turning her face over her shoulder. He kisses her hard, again, teeth pressing hard into her lips, forcing air from her with each thrust, moaning into her mouth. She can feel her own release coming, and his mouth stifles her whimpers as it peaks. She bucks back into him, crying out into his mouth, which seems to only feed his desire. He pounds her harder, and she can tell he is close as well. He breaks contact with her mouth as the last wave hits her and she screams his name. His pounding is furious now, his fingers digging into her flesh on her hips, bruising the skin. She can hear his breath hissing between his clenched teeth, and when he lifts his hand from her hip, she’s ready for the stinging slap that follows. Another one follows, punishing the fair skin on her flank like he’s punishing the inside of her body, and pain and pleasure become indistinguishable.
His desire is animal, his groan is guttural and his last thrusts are sharp. She can feel the pulse inside of her with his release, and then he breaks the silence. It comes in a rush of air. “I love you.” Her name. And then he collapses on top of her, whispering her name again, in her ear. He wraps his arms around hers above her head on the pillows, and she can feel his heart pound frantically against her back.
Face buried in the pillow, she whispers “I love you” where he can’t hear, and silently speaks his name, knowing it may be the last chance she has to say it in his presence, but still not able to say it. Her tears wet the pillow, like they will other nights in the future.
He whispers “I love you” again, letting it hang there, like a question. In that moment, a small fissure starts in her heart.
He approaches her from behind, kissing her on the neck, wrapping his arm around her waist. She can feel he’s hard already. Not like she’s surprised; she’s already wet, and has been since dinner, staring across the table at him. Even in the silence, when they were afraid to say what tomorrow would bring - or wouldn’t bring, as was the case. It doesn’t matter; her body betrays her.
She stays like this for a moment, afraid to see his face. She lets his hands wander up under her sweater, inside of her bra, then down under the waistband of her jeans and inside her panties. She memorizes him pressed up against her, his breath, warm on her neck.
He spins her around; his eyes are nearly black, in the dim light. He lifts her sweater in one quick motion. He unbuttons her jeans and slips them over her legs, leaving her in just her bra and panties. He moves his hand over her, like her body is a Braille text he’s reading, memorizing. She feels the lump start in her throat; she pushes it down, turns her emotions on low.
She moves to unbuckle his belt and lets her hands trail across his erection as she slides the jeans down. She pulls his shirt over his head with business-like efficiency, then steps close to him, her body matched to his. He kisses her hard on the mouth, and she responds instantly - no soft exploration, no gentle kisses. It’s teeth pressing into flesh, tongues battling, no room for air. They fall on the bed and his body covers hers. His hips are pressed into her hard, his mouth nearly suffocating her, taking her breath. She can taste blood on her lip, but it only makes her kiss him back, harder. Tomorrow it will heal.
He tears at his briefs, then rips her panties from her, the lace seam giving way. He doesn’t have the patience for the hooks on her bra; he pushes it down, exposing her breast. His mouth clamps down on a nipple, then the whole breast; he’s sucking it into his mouth, almost painfully, leaving red marks on the creamy skin. He comes back up to cover her mouth with his, as he pushes her legs apart.
He buries himself inside of her, but not gradually - in one forceful thrust. She’s wet, but the force still takes her by surprise, and she cries out under his mouth. He forces himself into her again, frenzied, and she still cries out. He pulls back from her mouth, shifts his body and pushes her legs up toward her body, kneeling between her; he pounds her body, watching her face. He lets go of her legs, and she braces her feet against his shoulders. He puts one hand under her hips, touches her face with the other. She bites the palm of his hand as he slides it across her mouth. He makes a move like he’s going to slap her, but stops centimeters from her skin, caressing her cheek. She can feel the tears well in her eyes, knowing he can see them too. She closes her eyes and leans against his hand. He slides it down her neck, pressing into her flesh, and rests his hand on her breast, kneading it, squeezing it, watching the tremors in the other one as he pounds her body repeatedly.
He stops, saying nothing, but she reads his look, and knows the unspoken command. She brings one foot down from his shoulder, crossing it over her own body, turning. He shifts with her, unwilling to lose contact, as she twists her body beneath him, until she is kneeling, with him still inside of her. She lays her chest on the bed, arching her hips to meet him. He pushes himself deep inside of her, pulling her hips back to meet him. She pauses in this familiar position, then raises herself up on all fours. He holds her hips, caressing her ass, waiting. Then he thrusts, shaking her body. He thrusts again, as hard as he can, and she cries out, trying to pull away. He holds her hips and thrusts into her, over and over.
He’s hard and big, and each thrust jars her, making her ache. But the dull pain is being masked by the building rush and she can feel herself getting wetter. She moans and cries out, but they speak no words. He leans down, reaching for her face, turning her face over her shoulder. He kisses her hard, again, teeth pressing hard into her lips, forcing air from her with each thrust, moaning into her mouth. She can feel her own release coming, and his mouth stifles her whimpers as it peaks. She bucks back into him, crying out into his mouth, which seems to only feed his desire. He pounds her harder, and she can tell he is close as well. He breaks contact with her mouth as the last wave hits her and she screams his name. His pounding is furious now, his fingers digging into her flesh on her hips, bruising the skin. She can hear his breath hissing between his clenched teeth, and when he lifts his hand from her hip, she’s ready for the stinging slap that follows. Another one follows, punishing the fair skin on her flank like he’s punishing the inside of her body, and pain and pleasure become indistinguishable.
His desire is animal, his groan is guttural and his last thrusts are sharp. She can feel the pulse inside of her with his release, and then he breaks the silence. It comes in a rush of air. “I love you.” Her name. And then he collapses on top of her, whispering her name again, in her ear. He wraps his arms around hers above her head on the pillows, and she can feel his heart pound frantically against her back.
Face buried in the pillow, she whispers “I love you” where he can’t hear, and silently speaks his name, knowing it may be the last chance she has to say it in his presence, but still not able to say it. Her tears wet the pillow, like they will other nights in the future.
He whispers “I love you” again, letting it hang there, like a question. In that moment, a small fissure starts in her heart.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
Alternatives
It was an intoxicating feeling, wedged in the small booth between them.
Evan was on her right, his bare calf against hers in the small booth, not bothering to give her space. Their connection, that familiarity, didn’t require him to heed her personal space, even in public. It was cramped and noisy; when he talked to her, he had to lean in close to her, letting his arm rest against hers, his lips graze her cheeks or her ears when he spoke. She would rest her hand on his arm as she talked, feeling the soft blonde hairs under her skin, and his voice would send chills down her spine, regardless of the topic. The dim bar lights caught the flash in his crystal blue eyes, and she found herself staring at his mouth when he smiled, imagining running her tongue over his perfect teeth. Not something she’d actually done, except in every third dream for the past two years or something like that. Sometimes, she was certain he had the same dreams, too. Not that they were completely unfounded. She still remembered the night they almost kissed. It still made her groin ache to think of it, and sometimes, when they’d dance around the subject, she was certain he was uncomfortably aroused too. They’d held themselves in check, but not for the wanting. She couldn’t count the nights she’d drive home from work after some innuendo-filled conversation, her heart racing and nerves tingling, and shut herself in her room trying to find release.
Daniel was on her left, with his hazel eyes and a lazy smile. He sat with a casual indifference, his arm draped on the outside edge of the C-shaped booth for three, running his hand occasionally through the flop of auburn hair across his forehead. But his thigh pressed tight against hers spoke of want and need and possession. In a previous night, much like this night, after a late night in some hotel conference room prepping for the next day’s sales presentation, they’d shared a beer, or three, a few stories, and on her way out of the elevator to her room, he’d pulled her back, kissing her hard. She’d kissed back, and over the next few months, regardless of all her reservations about having any kind of relationship like this with someone she worked with, all resolve had weakened, and they had given in on more than one occasion. She felt a flutter just thinking about it, knowing that at some point, he too had imagined a stolen moment sometime on this sales jaunt. Her back pressed up against the wall in the hotel room, his hand sliding up her skirt, his teeth catching her lips. But for now, it was only the heat from his thigh.
Now, sitting between them, working her way through a second margarita, she started to feel dizzy, though less from the alcohol than from the sheer emotional rush. She loved them both dearly, as friends, almost like brothers. She respected them both as colleagues. But it was like she’d been thrown into some Jerry Springer episode where by the end of the show she was supposed to have chosen between them and it was starting to make her head spin. Funny thing is, right now, she couldn’t make a choice.
She needed to clear her head. She put down her drink. “Upstairs,” she said, looking from one of them to the next. “We’re dancing.” She knew neither of them was crazy about dancing, but she knew that they’d go with her. They stood, and she slid out too, pointing the way to the back stairs. Evan started to lead the way, and she followed, Daniel close behind.
It was a crowded place and they wound their way through people carefully. When they got to the stairs, Evan blocked some space and Daniel went ahead, leading. She followed close behind, one hand stretched out in front of her to thread her way through the crowd, and one hand stretched back. When Daniel had gotten a few steps ahead of her, she felt Evan’s fingers grab hers. She tried to tell herself that he was just making it easier for them to thread through the crowd and stay together, but she felt his fingers intertwine with hers and tighten. She wished they had more stairs to climb. He held on to her through the crowd, but when the crowd thinned and Daniel was in sight again, he dropped her hand carefully. Her fingers still burned with the heat.
They refilled their drinks at the upstairs bar, the guys ordering another bottle of beer, and she refilling the margarita. She sipped at it, licking the salt from the rim, feeling the heat from their arms on either side of her. Making a decision, she set her glass down and announced “I need to dance,” glancing at each of them in turn, then turning her back toward them as she moved toward the dance floor. It was a fast song, one that she could lose herself in the crowd if neither one of them joined her. She closed her eyes and began to sway, raising her arms and spinning.
When she opened her eyes, they had both followed her. Daniel still held his bottle of beer and swigged from it occasionally as he swayed in time to the music. She smiled, and moved closer to him, and he draped his free arm around her waist and moved in time with her. She turned her back to him, and swayed against his hip, his hand still on her hip. She looked across the dance space at Evan, and his eyes flickered, his finger beckoning. She moved forward, placing one foot between his two feet, and one on the outside of his left leg, and he put his hand on the small of her back, pulling her closer. She straddled his leg as they moved, and she could feel his cheek against hers. The room was dark but she could feel a flush rise in her face; she knew his fair skin had to be burning at this point. She lowered her head slightly, just enough so that her lips brushed against his neck at the edge of his t-shirt; then she turned around with her back to him.
The bass pounded harder as the song changed, and she ground her hips, occasionally brushing against him. She thought about moving closer to Daniel, but felt Evan’s fingers catch the back of her jean skirt, his fingers grazing the skin of her lower back and he held onto her. Daniel moved closer, unaware that Evan had made contact, and he moved his hips with hers, staring into her eyes, raising his eyebrow. She closed her eyes and turned with her back to Daniel, letting her head drop back and her hair brush against him, his hand reaching up to touch the middle of her back. She felt Evan’s fingers slide around her waistband as she turned, brushing past her navel and making her shiver, finally releasing his hold. When she opened her eyes, Evan held a hand out and she took it, letting him pull her closer for a turn, spinning her around before he caught her and moved with her.
The crowd had gotten bigger, so that when the song ended, she found herself wedged between Evan and Daniel on the dance floor, the three of them breathing hard. She fanned her face, declaring “I need a drink,” and headed toward the bar, unsure of who to look at. They followed her in turn, and stood on the outskirts of the crowd, alternately watching the other dancers and her. She excused herself to the ladies room, and stood at the sink, holding the edges and staring at her own face, then splashing some water on it, trying to think straight. The crowd in the small bathroom was getting bigger and she walked back to the bar at the edge of the dance floor where they waited. The lights for last call flashed, and she could see the flush of pink in Evan’s cheeks, and the dark glow in Daniel’s eyes.
“We’re going to head back to the hotel,” Evan said, and Daniel nodded. Her heart raced, not wanting this to end, unsure of what was next. She climbed in the backseat of the car as Evan slipped into the driver’s seat, and Daniel stretched out his legs in the front passenger seat. She leaned forward onto the console as they drove, her hands resting on both seat backs, acutely aware of their shoulders resting against her fingers.
In the elevator, Daniel pushed the 3rd floor. He looked over his shoulder at Evan, and said “Room?” Evan said “405” and Daniel pushed the 4th floor button. Daniel looked back at her and said “Room?” and she blurted out “515,” noticing that they both looked up, then looked quickly down. Daniel got off first, and addressed them both, but looked at her “Breakfast tomorrow?” and they both nodded. Evan moved closer as the doors closed, and she could smell his cologne, and she rubbed her temples, trying to clear her head. He lingered some as the door opened, looking back at her. “Need anything? Tylenol or something?” he asked, knowing full well she carried a complete arsenal for her frequent headaches. She wanted to say yes, but shook her head, holding his gaze as the door closed and the elevator lurched upward to the 5th floor.
Her fingers shook as she slid the key card into the room door. Closing the door behind her she kicked off her heels, and the phone started to ring. She picked it up to find Daniel on the other line. “Want to meet downstairs for breakfast, or should I come by and get you?” he asked, even though they’d been meeting downstairs each day for the last two days. She wanted to say “come by” but agreed to meet him downstairs, then hung up the phone. It rang in her hand. Evan. Reminding her to drink water and take Tylenol before bed, w anting to know if she had enough. She thanked him, sensed hesitation as he looked for more conversation, and mumbled a goodnight to him.
She threw herself on the bed, groaning. Replaying the events of the night; reliving the torture of sitting between the two of them, wanting them both. She pulled a pillow over her face and groaned into it, biting it, then rolled over on top of it. Her mind was racing and her body followed; sleep was not going to come easy. She lay on the bed in her clothes, but turned out the light, staring into the dark of the room, lit only by the clock radio.
The knock at the door startled her and sent her heart racing. Knowing it would be one of them. Not knowing who, or for what purpose. A second knock sounded softly, and she got out of bed. Mechanically, she walked to the door, about to peer out the peephole; instead, she turned, leaning back against the door, her hand on the handle. She counted to five, wanting to look out and know before she opened the door. But then, she thought, did it matter?
She closed her eyes, her heart hammering in her throat, turned the handle, and swung the door open slowly.
Evan was on her right, his bare calf against hers in the small booth, not bothering to give her space. Their connection, that familiarity, didn’t require him to heed her personal space, even in public. It was cramped and noisy; when he talked to her, he had to lean in close to her, letting his arm rest against hers, his lips graze her cheeks or her ears when he spoke. She would rest her hand on his arm as she talked, feeling the soft blonde hairs under her skin, and his voice would send chills down her spine, regardless of the topic. The dim bar lights caught the flash in his crystal blue eyes, and she found herself staring at his mouth when he smiled, imagining running her tongue over his perfect teeth. Not something she’d actually done, except in every third dream for the past two years or something like that. Sometimes, she was certain he had the same dreams, too. Not that they were completely unfounded. She still remembered the night they almost kissed. It still made her groin ache to think of it, and sometimes, when they’d dance around the subject, she was certain he was uncomfortably aroused too. They’d held themselves in check, but not for the wanting. She couldn’t count the nights she’d drive home from work after some innuendo-filled conversation, her heart racing and nerves tingling, and shut herself in her room trying to find release.
Daniel was on her left, with his hazel eyes and a lazy smile. He sat with a casual indifference, his arm draped on the outside edge of the C-shaped booth for three, running his hand occasionally through the flop of auburn hair across his forehead. But his thigh pressed tight against hers spoke of want and need and possession. In a previous night, much like this night, after a late night in some hotel conference room prepping for the next day’s sales presentation, they’d shared a beer, or three, a few stories, and on her way out of the elevator to her room, he’d pulled her back, kissing her hard. She’d kissed back, and over the next few months, regardless of all her reservations about having any kind of relationship like this with someone she worked with, all resolve had weakened, and they had given in on more than one occasion. She felt a flutter just thinking about it, knowing that at some point, he too had imagined a stolen moment sometime on this sales jaunt. Her back pressed up against the wall in the hotel room, his hand sliding up her skirt, his teeth catching her lips. But for now, it was only the heat from his thigh.
Now, sitting between them, working her way through a second margarita, she started to feel dizzy, though less from the alcohol than from the sheer emotional rush. She loved them both dearly, as friends, almost like brothers. She respected them both as colleagues. But it was like she’d been thrown into some Jerry Springer episode where by the end of the show she was supposed to have chosen between them and it was starting to make her head spin. Funny thing is, right now, she couldn’t make a choice.
She needed to clear her head. She put down her drink. “Upstairs,” she said, looking from one of them to the next. “We’re dancing.” She knew neither of them was crazy about dancing, but she knew that they’d go with her. They stood, and she slid out too, pointing the way to the back stairs. Evan started to lead the way, and she followed, Daniel close behind.
It was a crowded place and they wound their way through people carefully. When they got to the stairs, Evan blocked some space and Daniel went ahead, leading. She followed close behind, one hand stretched out in front of her to thread her way through the crowd, and one hand stretched back. When Daniel had gotten a few steps ahead of her, she felt Evan’s fingers grab hers. She tried to tell herself that he was just making it easier for them to thread through the crowd and stay together, but she felt his fingers intertwine with hers and tighten. She wished they had more stairs to climb. He held on to her through the crowd, but when the crowd thinned and Daniel was in sight again, he dropped her hand carefully. Her fingers still burned with the heat.
They refilled their drinks at the upstairs bar, the guys ordering another bottle of beer, and she refilling the margarita. She sipped at it, licking the salt from the rim, feeling the heat from their arms on either side of her. Making a decision, she set her glass down and announced “I need to dance,” glancing at each of them in turn, then turning her back toward them as she moved toward the dance floor. It was a fast song, one that she could lose herself in the crowd if neither one of them joined her. She closed her eyes and began to sway, raising her arms and spinning.
When she opened her eyes, they had both followed her. Daniel still held his bottle of beer and swigged from it occasionally as he swayed in time to the music. She smiled, and moved closer to him, and he draped his free arm around her waist and moved in time with her. She turned her back to him, and swayed against his hip, his hand still on her hip. She looked across the dance space at Evan, and his eyes flickered, his finger beckoning. She moved forward, placing one foot between his two feet, and one on the outside of his left leg, and he put his hand on the small of her back, pulling her closer. She straddled his leg as they moved, and she could feel his cheek against hers. The room was dark but she could feel a flush rise in her face; she knew his fair skin had to be burning at this point. She lowered her head slightly, just enough so that her lips brushed against his neck at the edge of his t-shirt; then she turned around with her back to him.
The bass pounded harder as the song changed, and she ground her hips, occasionally brushing against him. She thought about moving closer to Daniel, but felt Evan’s fingers catch the back of her jean skirt, his fingers grazing the skin of her lower back and he held onto her. Daniel moved closer, unaware that Evan had made contact, and he moved his hips with hers, staring into her eyes, raising his eyebrow. She closed her eyes and turned with her back to Daniel, letting her head drop back and her hair brush against him, his hand reaching up to touch the middle of her back. She felt Evan’s fingers slide around her waistband as she turned, brushing past her navel and making her shiver, finally releasing his hold. When she opened her eyes, Evan held a hand out and she took it, letting him pull her closer for a turn, spinning her around before he caught her and moved with her.
The crowd had gotten bigger, so that when the song ended, she found herself wedged between Evan and Daniel on the dance floor, the three of them breathing hard. She fanned her face, declaring “I need a drink,” and headed toward the bar, unsure of who to look at. They followed her in turn, and stood on the outskirts of the crowd, alternately watching the other dancers and her. She excused herself to the ladies room, and stood at the sink, holding the edges and staring at her own face, then splashing some water on it, trying to think straight. The crowd in the small bathroom was getting bigger and she walked back to the bar at the edge of the dance floor where they waited. The lights for last call flashed, and she could see the flush of pink in Evan’s cheeks, and the dark glow in Daniel’s eyes.
“We’re going to head back to the hotel,” Evan said, and Daniel nodded. Her heart raced, not wanting this to end, unsure of what was next. She climbed in the backseat of the car as Evan slipped into the driver’s seat, and Daniel stretched out his legs in the front passenger seat. She leaned forward onto the console as they drove, her hands resting on both seat backs, acutely aware of their shoulders resting against her fingers.
In the elevator, Daniel pushed the 3rd floor. He looked over his shoulder at Evan, and said “Room?” Evan said “405” and Daniel pushed the 4th floor button. Daniel looked back at her and said “Room?” and she blurted out “515,” noticing that they both looked up, then looked quickly down. Daniel got off first, and addressed them both, but looked at her “Breakfast tomorrow?” and they both nodded. Evan moved closer as the doors closed, and she could smell his cologne, and she rubbed her temples, trying to clear her head. He lingered some as the door opened, looking back at her. “Need anything? Tylenol or something?” he asked, knowing full well she carried a complete arsenal for her frequent headaches. She wanted to say yes, but shook her head, holding his gaze as the door closed and the elevator lurched upward to the 5th floor.
Her fingers shook as she slid the key card into the room door. Closing the door behind her she kicked off her heels, and the phone started to ring. She picked it up to find Daniel on the other line. “Want to meet downstairs for breakfast, or should I come by and get you?” he asked, even though they’d been meeting downstairs each day for the last two days. She wanted to say “come by” but agreed to meet him downstairs, then hung up the phone. It rang in her hand. Evan. Reminding her to drink water and take Tylenol before bed, w anting to know if she had enough. She thanked him, sensed hesitation as he looked for more conversation, and mumbled a goodnight to him.
She threw herself on the bed, groaning. Replaying the events of the night; reliving the torture of sitting between the two of them, wanting them both. She pulled a pillow over her face and groaned into it, biting it, then rolled over on top of it. Her mind was racing and her body followed; sleep was not going to come easy. She lay on the bed in her clothes, but turned out the light, staring into the dark of the room, lit only by the clock radio.
The knock at the door startled her and sent her heart racing. Knowing it would be one of them. Not knowing who, or for what purpose. A second knock sounded softly, and she got out of bed. Mechanically, she walked to the door, about to peer out the peephole; instead, she turned, leaning back against the door, her hand on the handle. She counted to five, wanting to look out and know before she opened the door. But then, she thought, did it matter?
She closed her eyes, her heart hammering in her throat, turned the handle, and swung the door open slowly.
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